I'm not sure?

I’m not sure if I should even be doing this. I am having anxiety about my anxiety. I love fashion. I love putting things together. I love getting complimented on a outfit. I love the thrill of seeing something I like and hunting it down online. Fashion is my therapy. It controls the majority of my brain. I am constantly worried about what to wear to what. It really does consume most of my thoughts. When I do have down time I am scrolling instagram or websites for the latest and greatest. However just because I enjoy it doesn’t mean I should be broadcasting it publicly to others? I really worry that my opinion isn’t valid. Who really cares what I think? I’m a 40 something mother of 4. Does the world really need another blog about fashion? Why should anyone pay attention to me? What do I have to say that’s more important than anyone else? Is this all just annoying and self aggrandizing ?

I don’t know the answer to any of these and I still believe that this may all be too trivial but I know that it makes me feel good to find good clothes and bargains and if nothing else it is my way of following through on an idea. I try to teach my children to follow through and so I need to push through my fears and follow through so here goes. Today I will put myself out there for better or worse.